friend or best friend?

when you're in distance, miles away from your comfort zone it prove a lot of things. how much independent you are and how much tough you are to through anything by yourself. i learned a lot in almost a year here. but at least i know who's the one that real for me and who's not.

Family always comes first whenever you are, im sure no one real more than my family instead. Mom Dad and my Brother are the best thing i've ever had in my whole life. they're the only one that always there for me and being my best listener, adviser and my reason to keep run for my dreams.

i have no idea to say anything about friend, i dont know whats the meaning about "just friend" or "best friend" instead. its so rare for me now to feel that all those things just a word or they really mean it. distance prove everything about this, its really prove and it hurts although now i already found new friends doesnt mean an old friend has no meaning for me, honestly they're who knows real i am. But now my group friends are broken, each to their own busy lives with the new life, i really miss those days, when we had no obligation, we had no distance, we had trust and we had a good conversation and laugh each other, most of all, we had loyalty.

SAD? Yes, I am but im not pathetic, its just really hurt me to see they all that i trust start being away from me, maybe im childish maybe im selfish but Bestfriend should always beside us, right? and i cant see all those stuffs about Bestfriend thing anymore, feels they all just strangers for me.

that's why although im lonely here, but at least i have a reason to stay and chase my dream. and if im come back, theres no point to be fool in front of them cause i dont have a same meaning for them anymore. for the one that always there for me, i know who you are, and thanks a lot for being real. i hope im still can belive that "distance doesnt mean anything if someone means everything."